January 29, 2010
We are so grateful for every one's prayers and thoughts during the last two weeks. We have had a bit of a rough go, and it has meant a lot to us to know of your thoughts and prayers in our behalf. We are so grateful for the blessing of health returning to all of us. Hopefully the rest of the winter can be uneventful. :)
January 26, 2010
That was really gross. I had to wash the taste out of my mouth. Later, Adam toasted some in the oven and it was a marked improvement, but still, I wanted my coconut M&Ms. And now, I finally have them. YUM!
I usually don't post anything on here that would embarrass Adam. He doesn't embarrass easily anyway, but this I couldn't resist. :)
Gabe has had the same cold/flu junk the rest of us have had. When I took Porter in on Friday, I asked about Gabe, and at the time the doctor said he looked good, no signs of RSV, or anything else serious. That was the first day he had a fever, but only just over 100. That went on until last night, so four days; coughing, sneezing, fever just over 100. Then last night his fever jumped over 102. No other symptoms emerged, but something told me we needed to take him back in. When the nurse tested his O2 levels, he was only in the low 80s, and she thought the machine wasn't working. They got another one, and it read the same. She had another nurse come in and try it too. At one point, he had one on his foot, one on his other toe, and one on his finger. They all read in the low 80s. Doctor says RSV, bronchiolitis, as well as an ear infection. They sent us over to the lab for the RSV test, which came back negative, but since his O2 levels are so low, it could turn to RSV easily, and he still has bronchiolitis, they wanted to start him on treatment right away anyway. He has to have 4 albuterol treatments a day and he also has to be on continual oxygen for the next few days. I will take him back in on Friday and see how he is doing, unless he gets worse, in which case, we will be going to the ER.
I am so glad that something pushed me not to wait, and just go right in today. The twins have been sick the last couple of days, so I didn't know if they would be home from preschool and I would have to haul all four kids in, or if they would even have an appt open during a time that we could go, but we prayed about it this morning, and when I got to work, the twins were good and they went to school. When I called, they had an appt open for right after I dropped the twins off, so we had plenty of time for all the appt/waiting and the tests/waiting. Everything worked out just right so that we could get everything in this morning and be back home in time for the Home Health people to deliver the oxygen and show us how to use it. I am just so grateful that we can treat him at home and that we didn't need to take him to the hospital. Not only would that mean he was more sick, but being in the hospital would expose him to more illnesses and maybe exacerbate the problem.
I am also so grateful for good health insurance. Between Porter being in the ER over Christmas and everything over the last two weeks, we will definitely have some bills to pay and maybe that house just won't happen this year, but I am so glad that we are able to afford to get our family, especially the kids, the help they need when they are sick.
January 24, 2010
We are all slowly getting over our various illnesses. I am past the flu, I think. I just have bronchitis now. Porter's 'polka dots' are fading away. Gabe has still had a runny nose/cough, but it doesn't seem to slow him down much. I think we are all on the upswing.
January 22, 2010
I also found out that I pretty much wasted my money on the inhaler the instacare Dr prescribed. I told him I didn't think it was working very well, and he replied that he wasn't surprised. Apparently they only really work for bronchitis patients who also have asthma, which I don't have. Sigh....
Both Porter and I received blessings last night. Porter was told he would heal quickly. I was told it would not be so quick for me, but that I would be able to work and that I would eventually get past this trial. I could really tell that I was blessed to be able to work today. I had the energy I needed to get the things done that had to be done, and I think the kids realized I needed all the help I could get because they were very good. Very few meltdowns and they played really well together today. I am so glad for the weekend and especially glad that I have such a wonderful husband that has just taken on everything and made sure we are all looked after while we are all sick. Above all, I am thankful for the priesthood in my home and a wonderful neighbor who could come on a moment's notice to help Adam bless our little family.
January 21, 2010
He woke up with a head to toe rash. And I mean head to toe. I don't think there is any place on his body where he doesn't have hives. Poor guy. And the pictures don't even show how bad it really is. It doesn't seem to bother him any; he hasn't itched at it at all and he calls them his polka dots. I feel so bad for him. So now we try a third antibiotic and see if that finally kicks it. Esther, Porter feels your pain.
Gabe also has the cold that is going around. Adam got sick from some food we ate, so he has had it this week too. I have the flu and now bronchitis. They were concerned about pneumonia, but for the time being they said the x-rays, although borderline, are still okay. If I don't improve in the next week, or if I get worse, I am to go back in for more x-rays.
So, we have well and truly had it up to here. None of us can take any more. Please give us some time to get better before throwing something else our way. Pretty please?
January 16, 2010
January 14, 2010
We went to the doctor today because I suspected an ear infection to be the cause of the fever. After looking in his ears the doctor agreed and then when he looked in Porter's throat said he probably has strep throat too. He didn't do the test for it, since the antibiotics for his ear will also take care of strep, but he was pretty sure thats what is was.
Poor guy. And then we had to wait for his medicine at the store and his temp started to go up again. I could tell just by looking at him, it happened so fast. The lady at the pharmacy offered him a lolipop, and he just looked at it. Definately really sick. By the time we got back home it was nearly 103 again. He hadn't eaten anything, but I had to hand feed him to get him to have even a couple bites. At the store he kept saying, "Mommy, I need to go to bed." As soon as I got him to take a couple bites of food, I laid him down with some cold juice and he was out immediately.
Today is a day I am really grateful we have the video monitor. Although we have liked having it, there have only been a few days when it has been what I would call neccessary. Today it is. I moved it off the crib and back to his bed, so that I could make sure he was sleeping ok and that if he had any problems, I could catch it. I have been reassured several times that febrile seizures don't do any damage and that he won't be hurt by them, but I can't stand the thought of him having one and my not knowing about it and being able to comfort him. I am sure it is pretty scary for him and I wouldn't want to have him go through it alone. I am not worried about brain damage, but I hate to think of his suffering in any way. I will update this if anything happens, but he is on the antibiotics now, so he should be feeling better quickly. At least that is our prayer.
I wish I knew if he has had this since Christmas. I suspect the ear infection he probably has. The doctor in the emergency room said he had one ear that looked slightly pink, but not to worry about it. He said Porter would for sure complain if it was an infection and he never did. Even last night when we asked, he said his ears were fine. But this morning the doctor he normally sees says he has seen kids rupture their ears and never complain. I guess Porter is one of those kids. I wonder how long he has had strep too. He has had a lingering sniffly nose and on and off cough all winter. We took him in a few months ago and they said it was allergies, but now I am wondering if he hasn't just had a sinus infection for months that has finally turned into strep. So now I suffer a mother's guilt for not knowing or noticing something before now. We just assumed it was allergies; since the family has such a history, it seemed to make the most sense. And since he never complained about his ears, I didn't think about it. Sigh... At least now we know and he can get better.
January 12, 2010
January 09, 2010
The last time I was there I got a perm and a haircut for $55. When I walked to the counter to pay, she said, "That will be $155." Uh, what?#$%* I said, "um that is not what I paid last time. I know I didn't pay more than about $50." She looked it up in my records and sure enough, they show that I paid $55. She said, "Well, you had a different person last time and this time you had the owner and she charges $115 for a perm and $40 for a haircut." She said she would go and ask the stylist about it and the woman said that since I didn't know, she would drop her perm price to $85; she was firm on the haircut. Still leaving me with a whopping bill; $125, that I wasn't prepared to pay. It was still more than twice what I had budgeted for this and that didn't yet include a tip. I did go ahead and pay, but I left feeling like I had been really deceived. I had not been aware that every person in that salon charged different prices. No one had let me know that ahead of time. I hadn't asked for a price this time because I knew what I had paid last time and expected it to be the same. Am I the only person who thinks this business practice stinks of bait and switch, something along those lines?
Anyway, The woman did a good job and maybe it was worth the fortune that she charges. I don't know. All I know is that my pocketbook is screaming and I resent ever having gone, because I feel I was lied to, in omission. I think that when they make the appointments, especially since I hadn't requested a particular stylist, that they should tell you who is available and apprise you of their rates. Not cool to pull something like that on you after you have already had your hair done and there is no going back or walking out. I guarantee if I had known her prices I would have walked out without letting her touch my hair.
Am I insane to be so upset by this?
Oh, and did I mention that she accidentally squirted nutralizer in my face, getting it in my eye? She didn't even notice. I waited for her to notice and wipe it off, but I had to request a washcloth myself so that I could clean off.
The ends of my hair are just a little burned, but that has more to do with the original state of my hair, I think, so if you see that, I don't think that can be laid at her door. I asked her to take no more than 2 inches off, but after the curl if feels more like five. Growing it out again, ggrrrr!
January 07, 2010
Of course, Porter had to get in on the action. He hates not being able to be in every picture. Since we took them this morning, he hadn't gotten dressed yet, but he is still pretty dang cute in his jammies. Such a good brother......most of the time. :)
This is still usually the quick result. :) He is getting very good at going backwards. He has gotten stuck under quite a few items of furniture this way. And he is starting to 'army crawl' a bit too. Soon we won't be able to keep up with him.
Our angel Gabriel, and the hosts of angels with him. :) (Adam did multiple duty playing them all.)
Porter was one of the shepherds. We quickly took his crook from him to protect the house and everyone else.
January 05, 2010
Christmas morning was great! Porter is old enough to really get a kick out of opening presents and he would take his to a different person each time to have them help him open it and he loved helping others open theirs. It was really fun watching get excited over his gifts.Gabe with some of his loot. Anything that could go in his mouth was the hit of the day.Porter had been wanting this robot for a long time. We had given them to the twins for Christmas and another friend of his, so he had already seen three of them opened and didn't have one for himself. At last, one of his own.
The view from the top of the bluff. Somewhere at the bottom of the hill is their house.
Adam and Joe both got to wear a crown, if only on their shadows.
This is Porter's Christmas gift from G&G Gibson. He loves it. For some reason it won't load correctly, but you get the gist.
I also had a sort of epiphany this last week. I have been really struggling with feeling good and when I don't feel good, it is hard to get motivated to do good things for my body. I look in the mirror in the morning and nothing looks good on me. (My husband can give testament to how many outfits I try on any given Sunday.) Because I don't feel good about myself from the beginning of the day, it is easy to give in to food and easy to forgo getting any exercise. I end the day depressed and feeling guilty over what or how much I ate, and not working out. Which just gets me started for the cycle the next day to repeat itself. However, on the days that I do feel good, everything seems to fall in line. I eat right and I actually want to get in some time to work out. I end the day feeling really good.
So, this is the deal....I have been shopping mostly at DI and the clearance racks, since I keep thinking I don't want to spend a lot of money on clothes that I don't think I will wear for very long. Problem is that I am not getting clothes that look and feel good on me. It drops my self esteem and then I end up wearing them longer because I lose my motivation. Does that make sense? Also I had been getting clothes that were sometimes just a bit tight(pants), thinking that I would be able to wear them longer as I lost the weight, but that also added to the problem of nothing fitting right or looking good.
So, this last week, I decided that no matter how long I wore them, I just had to make the investment in some nice clothes that looked good and made me feel good. I lost count of how many pairs of jeans I tried on before I found a pair that fit just right. They fit right everywhere, even the length, which for me is almost always too long. And an unexpected bonus-they are a size smaller than anything currently in my closet. Most likely a sizing mistake, because everything else I tried on was still the bigger size, but it makes me feel good anyway. :) My new favorite pair of jeans. I also got a nice dress shirt. I now have two really nice new dress shirts because several weeks ago I had found a sweater top that I really liked and asked Adam to get it for me for Christmas. We bought it, and when we got home, Adam put it away. It was a total surprise Christmas morning because I had completely forgotten about it.
So, I feel good, I think I look good, and things are starting out well. My new goal isn't just weight loss, although that is definately part of it. The goal in my mind is that I want to feel good at the end of the day. I want to get to the end of the day and not feel guilty for how I spent my day, either how I acted, or what I ate, or what I said, etc. When someone offers me food that isn't healthy or a portion that is too big, it has been very simple for me to turn it down because I just think, how is this going to make me feel at the end of the day? I have been able to walk away from things that I wouldn't normally, just because my desire to feel good at the end of the day is strong. Yesterday was my first day back at work, and they always have tons of junk food at their house. (six boys and that will happen) I wondered how I would handle it. It wasn't a problem. I looked at the m&ms, the cookies, the chips, the fried chicken, etc and I walked away. I knew that none of it would make me feel good and I walked away. Simple as that.
Knowing that I want to feel good at the end of the day has helped me do more during the day as well. My employers have been working on painting a downstairs room and moving a couple of their boys around, so they haven't had time to keep up with some other things, so I really wanted to help them out with it. With my new motivation, and kids that were really excited to play with each other again, I was able to get a lot of the regular housework done for them. I was a bit sore at the end of the day, but I felt really good about helping them out. And the kids all helped out a lot picking up their toys too. We have gotten some much needed organization done in our house too. I have finally cleaned out our hall closet of all Gabe's baby accessories and also Porter's closet and put away all the outgrown clothes for both of the boys. Now I need to get out Porter's old bins and start pulling the next size out for Gabe. Maybe soon I will be able to get out a bin or two of my pre-Gabe clothes. But even if I don't lose a lot of weight, I will feel good about myself at the end of the day and that is what is important.